Don’t let the title of this ‘ordinary moment’ kid you: For sleep itself is a commodity we severely lack in this household. My darling little boy is the epitome of the phrase ‘Sleep is for the weak!’ As a baby, whilst all the other mamas around me could go about having a social chit-chat as their cherubs took a nap in their buggy, bear would have none of this. He’s always been ridiculously inquisitive, never wanting to miss a beat. Poking his little head up here & there, when you’d least expect it: earning the nickname ‘meerkat’.
During his first two weeks in this world, he would only sleep on me, snuggled on my chest with his squishy cheek planted just so: & his ear listening to my heart beat.
The day that we discovered our Baby Bjorn carrier & ‘baby wearing’ was a liberating experience: I regained the use of my arms, whilst still providing the comfort he craved. There was a time when we were inseparable, & I cherished every second of this: I loved having a cheeky nap with bear & feeling completely guilt free about the dust gathering on the furniture & having the reason excuse for this inertia: ‘ If I put him down he’ll wake straight back up’.
Night time sleeping has always been a battle: fraught with frequent waking’s, cuddles required or a drop of milk administered: but I think we may have turned the corner lately & we’ve achieved a number of complete nights’ with no disturbance. I’m relieved to an extent (& the bags under my eyes are thankful) but there’s also a feeling that I’m not ‘needed’ by him as much, that he’s becoming much more independent & self-sufficient.
So when it reaches ‘nap-time o’clock’ during the day & he so delicately asks me to sing ‘Twonkle, twonkle* mummyeee?’ (* twinkle twinkle to you & me) & to be rocked off in my embrace, my heart is flooded with the warmth of those memories from days gone by, & an element of sadness: how much longer will he ‘need’ these nap time cuddles from me? I’m not ready to give these up-I’m a long way off.
We are lucky, given how much comfort & reassurance he needed as a dinky dot, that he’s a remarkably independent toddler, & a real social butterfly: he inspires me & I often think we can learn a lot from our children & how they engage around others: they interact with no prejudice & with an innocence that is beautiful.
I’m pleased we didn’t take any notice of those doo good-ers & their advice against baby wearing & co-sleeping, as it’d make him a clingy & frightful child. The proof is in the pudding as they say, & this little pud is a melting pot of gooey chocolate & ice cream that everyone wants a piece of.